hurts

i sucks at guessing other people's feelings

that's why emoticons exist and i always let people who text me use it

but for you, i never know what you're thinking

you broke my heart from time to time

i heal it by hurting myself and the "sweetness" of words you'd said to me

once again, you kept silent, gone without saying goodbye

and appears again, making me doubt

i've been broken down and shattered in pieces

mend back bits by bits, vice versa.

i cant take it anymore

but yet i don't know what to do now

i love and hate you at the same time

i wish it so much that you never exist in my life