For mum, as promised. Preached by Pastor Kiu - 祷告和生活（罗马书12：1-2）
Morning Prayer (5:00am - 7:00am)
Afternoon Prayer (12:00pm - 1:00pm)
Night Prayer (5:00pm - 6:00pm) - This ain't Bedtime Prayer
不可少的 Important Prayer
- Exercising, Entertainment, Resting 也在神所赐的“自由和节制”之下享受幸福美满的人生
Saturday, November 24, 2012
You know you're not ready for the future yet when it's hard to say goodbye.
It's been two weeks, but all I remembered is what I've did on the first week. Second week seems to be all foggy and blur.
Time flies fast. I'm already halfway through college, and it all happened like a blink of an eye.
Whenever I'm home for the holidays, I even doubt if studying in Labuan has been like some sort of a dream.
I'm thankful for the blessings I've had and how God has let me grow within these months. I've always hated the process where I'll feel lost and constantly search for what God wanted to show me. I'm always eager for time to move faster when the process made me feel unpleasant and insecure. But God holds my hand through thick and thin, even in the worst situation when I have fear towards what's yet to come, and He showed me His everlasting love through the people around me.
The door God closes, no man can open; The door God open, no man can close; When God closes a door, He'll open a better one for us to enter.
One goodbye is always a marking of a new hello.
So, HELLO SECOND AKA LAST SEMESTER!
Friday, November 23, 2012
When something happened and tears triggered all those truth to be told
Some conffesion of what I really felt,
And have been denying for some times.
Things ended but it's not how imagine it'll be.
I came home bringing those fears with me, but somehow had to take it back to where I'd left.
I want strong faith in God again
I want to feel the peace
I want to love God like how I used to
But something's shielding me against those willingness,
And I just can't get rid of it.
I've changed, and I don't like those changes.
I keep thinking non-stop about life and death
Somehow my thoughts kept emphasizing on the death part
The night I sleep thinking about why I'm still living
The night I'm driving where I think about different kind of road accidents that could happen
The evening where I subconsiously thought about being pulled down into the pool and drown
The many times when I'm alone and I think about things that shouldn't happen, and goosebump just crawls all over me.
It scares me a lot
But I don't know how to stop those thoughts
I scared. Really really scared.
I hope I have the faith to overcome it.
There's this part of me that doesn't want to go back, I just want to stay home.
But, I can't...
Apart from bringing back those fears, I've so much thing that I haven't finish doing yet.
Dancing, reading, deciding things.
Everything's a mess. A gigantic mess that I'll have to face eventually.
That's the part of growing up right?
You ought to finish everything you're responsible to, and you have no way to run, or to hide.
All I need to do, is get rid of the shield against the relationship I have with God.
But where can I start when my heart's all stubborn and arrogant?
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
I'm actually the kind of the girl that will want everything to go my way whenever I got things planned ahead of me. I accept changes but only when it makes more sense compare from what I have in mind. Stubborn yet flexible. In short, complicated.
So that's the thing that kinda get me into this uneasy situation where I seems to neglect some of my friends. But to be frank, I don't really planned my two weeks holiday before I came home, I just had a mind set where I hope I could spend more time with my family, really rest and try not to spend a lot of money, somewhere in between searching for the reason why I felt so lost for the last half semester.
So there, I was caught in the moment and forgot that I have friends that actually wanna spend time with me. Perhaps it's not to late to repent? But I don't know where to go and what to do! Why, that sounded like an excuse where I can stay home.
#usualtwopersonalityfightingthingy and #consciencealwayswins
Saturday, November 17, 2012
A number of thoughts that mushed up into a pile of shit
Didn't get me going to somewhere different and always end up coming back to where I started
She was right, I've not given the ones who have tried even the slighest bit of chance
But I always thought that I know what I wanted, until I heard them talking
It's not about how perfect God's timing is, it's where I always keep the doors close
But when the timing really's perfect, those fear will fade away and God will unlock those doors
I hate having doubts. So not cool
Ps. Heyyo, it's okay and still waiting :)
Pps. My guitar is backkkkkkkkkkkk! Hehe. But dang although can strum I'm too sick to sing #shucks
Ppps. Getting sick while I'm back home is oooosum. Lol not the getting sick part la but where I've mummy to give me meds. #sainai
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Dinamika's Dinner! It's themed Masquerade! (Y)
6km Marathon with Labuan's citizen! :)
Mooncake Festival :))))
KML Got Talent
Yay babeh they got first! (Y)
Vocal Surprise Me With Yours
Last Tutorial before Study weeeeeeeeeek
Me and Cynthia :)
Went to KOOP wearing only towels and a cardigan. Haha crazzayyyy!
It wans supposed to be a "Get well soon" picture. But the patient edited it. Lol.
The recognized territory with the lecture mates I missssss :(
My roommates :)
Curl after braiding zee hair!
Continue missing piano and guitar :(((
I finally know how to braid this on my own. #Independence
Once in a while you can have luxury ones,
But most of the times must learn to save moneeeeeeeeh.
Went to Anglican Church with Priscilla :)
Mua First Semester Finals Examination Hall
I finally finished all my MUET exams! haha can't wait for next semester's English lessons. More practical, less theory! :P
Zhuliann left for SPA :( No more people speaking madarin in class with me dyyyyy. Sighhhh.
Currently at Mariner Hotel, waiting for 630am so I could leave for KK :)
Yeeeeea. Lots of talks, don't know if the action's enough.
I'll miss Priscilla the mosttttttttttt :(
Till then, bye.