:')

you're just a substitute 

a fake lover

a shield for protecting me falling for others

a hiding place to comfort and paralyze myself

thanks to you

i prevent myself from getting hurt from time to time

i love you more than you could imagine

hate you like how grief turns to sorrow, and lastly converts to numb

you've done a good job though

kept me desperate, and not dare to go any further near you

i really am grateful that you exist in my live

letting me get closer than compare to other

also not in a fantasy where i could dream that there's gonna be any happy ending

from deep down my heart

i hope you'll stay the way we are for the time being

until i found another substitute

or maybe when i'm strong enough to fly on my own

not relying you anymore