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For mum, as promised. Preached by Pastor Kiu - 祷告和生活（罗马书12：1-2）

福音的结论：以马内利；与神通行。

相信“神的话”；有心的祷告

五个步骤
（1）知道耶稣
（2）相信耶稣
（3）接待耶稣
（4）回应：把生命主权交托给神
（5）做决断

所谓决断，就是改变。
因为圣经说：叫爱神的人得益处
作为门徒的决断：（腓4：4-7）

Morning Prayer (5:00am - 7:00am)
决定生活的成败
- 打开信心的眼光
- 看见神同在的恩典
- 确认神的应许
- 期待新一天的带领而感谢神
- 求神让你不同的看待：独处、Family、Church、Workplace、Friends、所在的地区、世界
- 完全交托将要解决的事情、问题
- 神的计划，时间表

Afternoon Prayer (12:00pm - 1:00pm)
会带来生活现场得胜
- 再次开启属灵的眼睛，确认应许，属灵生命得充电
- 为工作得十倍的能力和果效祈求
- 从四周寻找要祝福的对象
- 预备智慧的言语和简单的信息
- 遇到问题时，要寻找神的美意，并交托给祂

Night Prayer (5:00pm - 6:00pm) - This ain't Bedtime Prayer
会带来加倍应许和祝福的收割
-在大自然里享受运动的时间，同时享受与神深切的对话、祷告
- 寻找在白天时光感恩的时
- 对自己的训练，用神的话预备自己
- 学习各样知识的最佳时刻
- 教会集会，享受肢体生活，侍奉教会的时间
- 可以安排时间探访有需要的人
- 整理一天的生活和应允，为着“世界福音”确认，掌握自己现场的时间表

不可少的 Important Prayer
- 随时的祷告：简单又有权柄的祷告，维持得胜有余的生活
- 吃饭前的祷告、身体软弱得医治，并维持健康和体力
- Exercising, Entertainment, Resting 也在神所赐的“自由和节制”之下享受幸福美满的人生
- 睡眠前感恩和交托及对话，祷告中使我们结束蒙恩的一天，并期待新的一天来临


#挑战维持如此祷告生活三个月，生命必定有所改变

KML - Sem 2 :)

You know you're not ready for the future yet when it's hard to say goodbye.

It's been two weeks, but all I remembered is what I've did on the first week. Second week seems to be all foggy and blur.

Time flies fast. I'm already halfway through college, and it all happened like a blink of an eye.

Whenever I'm home for the holidays, I even doubt if studying in Labuan has been like some sort of a dream.

I'm thankful for the blessings I've had and how God has let me grow within these months. I've always hated the process where I'll feel lost and constantly search for what God wanted to show me. I'm always eager for time to move faster when the process made me feel unpleasant and insecure. But God holds my hand through thick and thin, even in the worst situation when I have fear towards what's yet to come, and He showed me His everlasting love through the people around me.

The door God closes, no man can open; The door God open, no man can close; When God closes a door, He'll open a better one for us to enter.

One goodbye is always a marking of a new hello.

So, HELLO SECOND AKA LAST SEMESTER!

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When something happened and tears triggered all those truth to be told

Some conffesion of what I really felt,
And have been denying for some times.

Things ended but it's not how imagine it'll be.
I came home bringing those fears with me, but somehow had to take it back to where I'd left.

I want strong faith in God again
I want to feel the peace
I want to love God like how I used to

But something's shielding me against those willingness,
And I just can't get rid of it.

I've changed, and I don't like those changes.

I keep thinking non-stop about life and death
Somehow my thoughts kept emphasizing on the death part
The night I sleep thinking about why I'm still living
The night I'm driving where I think about different kind of road accidents that could happen
The evening where I subconsiously thought about being pulled down into the pool and drown
The many times when I'm alone and I think about things that shouldn't happen, and goosebump just crawls all over me.
It scares me a lot
But I don't know how to stop those thoughts

I scared. Really really scared.
I hope I have the faith to overcome it.

There's this part of me that doesn't want to go back, I just want to stay home.
But, I can't...

Apart from bringing back those fears, I've so much thing that I haven't finish doing yet.
Dancing, reading, deciding things.

Everything's a mess. A gigantic mess that I'll have to face eventually.
That's the part of growing up right?
You ought to finish everything you're responsible to, and you have no way to run, or to hide.

All I need to do, is get rid of the shield against the relationship I have with God.
But where can I start when my heart's all stubborn and arrogant?

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#照骗

I'm actually the kind of the girl that will want everything to go my way whenever I got things planned ahead of me. I accept changes but only when it makes more sense compare from what I have in mind. Stubborn yet flexible. In short, complicated.

So that's the thing that kinda get me into this uneasy situation where I seems to neglect some of my friends. But to be frank, I don't really planned my two weeks holiday before I came home, I just had a mind set where I hope I could spend more time with my family, really rest and try not to spend a lot of money, somewhere in between searching for the reason why I felt so lost for the last half semester.

So there, I was caught in the moment and forgot that I have friends that actually wanna spend time with me. Perhaps it's not to late to repent? But I don't know where to go and what to do! Why, that sounded like an excuse where I can stay home.

#usualtwopersonalityfightingthingy and #consciencealwayswins

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A number of thoughts that mushed up into a pile of shit
Didn't get me going to somewhere different and always end up coming back to where I started

She was right, I've not given the ones who have tried even the slighest bit of chance
But I always thought that I know what I wanted, until I heard them talking

It's not about how perfect God's timing is, it's where I always keep the doors close
But when the timing really's perfect, those fear will fade away and God will unlock those doors

I hate having doubts. So not cool

Ps. Heyyo, it's okay and still waiting :)
Pps. My guitar is backkkkkkkkkkkk! Hehe. But dang although can strum I'm too sick to sing #shucks
Ppps. Getting sick while I'm back home is oooosum. Lol not the getting sick part la but where I've mummy to give me meds. #sainai

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总之。虽然所做的事情好像比较多，但是最终仍觉得好像是一塌糊涂，超没规律的。

没有了原则，没有了正确的目标。

Dinamika's Dinner! It's themed Masquerade! (Y)

6km Marathon with Labuan's citizen! :)

Mooncake Festival :))))

KML Got Talent

Yay babeh they got first! (Y)

Vocal Surprise Me With Yours

Last Tutorial before Study weeeeeeeeeek

Me and Cynthia :)

Eyebags omo

Went to KOOP wearing only towels and a cardigan. Haha crazzayyyy!

It wans supposed to be a "Get well soon" picture. But the patient edited it. Lol.

The recognized territory with the lecture mates I missssss :(

My roommates :)

Curl after braiding zee hair!

Continue missing piano and guitar :(((

I finally know how to braid this on my own. #Independence

Foods

Once in a while you can have luxury ones,

But most of the times must learn to save moneeeeeeeeh.

Went to Anglican Church with Priscilla :)

Mua First Semester Finals Examination Hall

I finally finished all my MUET exams! haha can't wait for next semester's English lessons. More practical, less theory! :P

Zhuliann left for SPA :( No more people speaking madarin in class with me dyyyyy. Sighhhh.

Currently at Mariner Hotel, waiting for 630am so I could leave for KK :)

Yeeeeea. Lots of talks, don't know if the action's enough.

有神作标杆生活才能不会如此让自己情绪被捆绑的过着。

I'll miss Priscilla the mosttttttttttt :(

Till then, bye.

谈情

#会想念你的 #一定

不懂如何述说自己的心情。只能告诉你说，

倘若自己和神的关系凌乱的时候，自己的生活自然就会一塌糊涂。

虽然如此，我仍要感恩。

可能偶尔自己的焦点放错了，竟把一切恩典都视而不见，这是何等大的亏损。

快乐不再是永久性，因为一切的要求都世俗化，短暂了。

不想继续这样下去。

我不要回到从前。

从前那个贪不属于自己感情的感情，贪那会让自己欲想更多的关系。

我不想回到从前。

从前那个只顾自己和人关系，而忽略了和神早有的那段感情。

永久性的快乐只有神能赐下。

愿你的快乐是从神而来。

#HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY

让我们一起合一为马来西亚祷告吧。

KML - 回校

一个星期，又过了。

这次，反而没像当初那样想家。

可能偶尔会想家人朋友吧。BUT。又能怎样？看开了。

反正，会再见面的。

虽然上第一天课的前一天有点不知所措，仍寻不出推动自己念书的理由；感恩的是，第一天上课后，渐渐有了念书的推动力 —— 愧疚感 （狼狈？落魄？）哈哈。

总之，现在又恢复以往的心情咯。念书，应该有吧。只是两个星期假期培养出的爱睡习惯有点难恢复。嘻。至于减肥呢，动力满满！这次回来朋友见到我的第一句话多数都是：“你，膨胀(kembang)了？” 所以呢？当然有点怕到嘹咯。哈哈哈。

这星期我做的最最最令自己永生难忘的事是 —— 不自量力的面试去。明明自己都不大会弹吉他，还坚持个人秀。到最后，还忘词忘调；最让我不好意思的是，一个我不认识也不会认的人给整个过程给录下来了。疯掉 -.- 

不过，大致上都很OK啦，今晚还要和Pengarah倒数国庆 :O

明天放假！得赶之前追不上的课（超多的说）和出外补日常用品and干粮去 :)

祝大家有个恩典满满的国庆哟！！！告辞！

p/s. If time allows, I 'll add more photos next time!

数算恩典

从一开始到现在，我所走的每一步，都是满满的祝福；也因此，我学会了发自内心的感恩，明白说自己有多幸福 :)

离开的时候，感觉自己很倔强；很坚信说无论发生什么事，自己一定会没事的。因为当双眼仰望着上帝的荣耀时，如今，我的信念仍无更改；至今，我依然恩典满溢。



我的成绩没好到哪里去，但我仍得到名额有机会到Matriks升学。


当我在害怕这个未知会如何的升学机会时，我身边的弟兄姐妹都会一一来为我祷告，给我劝告。


去到纳闵之前和到了当地的时候，平时因顾家而似吝啬的老爸愿意钱包大出血为我买我需要的日常用品。


要离别的前一晚，突然又觉得害怕、不舍得起而开始哭了，妈妈在我身边给我拥抱为我祈祷，让神平静我心、增加信心。


到了学校报到；得到一个自己无法再求更好的校舍，三位很棒、愿意体谅我的室友。


因为鼻子敏感，爸妈愿意留下一天为我打扫房间，超幸福的说！


开课了，所有该学的东西都从新开始；之所以让我能再次好好把基础打好，不再像往那么的挣扎。


有个很好的求学环境；朋友，设施，教师都会有各个的影响力。


认识了一个好朋友；可以真的沟通的好朋友，愿意在我不明白的时候教我的好朋友，在我需要时会帮忙我的好朋友，在我睡太多而会把我叫醒的好朋友 :)


参加了团契，定时上教堂去；透过弟兄姐妹的关系看见上帝奇妙的大爱与恩典；看见上帝如何带领了每个人走到今天；因为大家正在经历的事情很相识，自然也会一起彼此照顾，彼此关心与关怀 :)


有足够的零钱花，身体也很健康的说，做了许多不曾做过的疯狂事；让曲曲的三个月增加了许多许多值得回顾的回忆！


当心和身体累了，还有一个可以依靠的力量来让我撑下去 —— 神的话语 :)


当遇上问题说出来时，父母，家乡的弟兄姐妹都会写下祝福加油的话语，好让自己被鼓励，知道自己不是一个人走，而是有很多弟兄姐妹在我背后撑腰。


当想家时，爸爸妈妈有时也会心灵相通的打电话给我，说说以前不会说的话，也聊了比往时更久的话。


心情急躁不开心的时候，知道能打电话和妈妈说话，感觉非常的欣慰。


到了假期，妈妈很大方的为我出了飞机票钱，让我能够回家......


回到家时，很多弟兄姐妹都愿意抽时陪陪我，虽然也不是特意的，但因为有他们的陪伴，我依然很感恩。因为他们的存在，我才能看见并明白更多得事情。


因为出外念书，或许对弟妹有某方面的影响吧。妈妈向我更新他们所有的改变突然让我觉得岁月，的确不等人......真希望他们能越长大，人越可爱 :)




所谓恩典，就是知道自己不配，仍白白得到的祝福。

当恩典来的时候，不要拒绝；
当恩典来的时候，也不可视而不见。
当恩典满溢的时候，别忘了感恩；
也常要提醒自己，施比受更为有福。

KML11, 12 - I'm coming home! :)

Week 11

The week I got my first chance in Lead singing during Mass :3

Night of practise - Freda was having a little pop quiz with Harry :)

Me in Ching's white blouse! (Y)

Foods we had and always seek for on Sunday - Homy :)

The days continue - "Preparing" for UPS. Haha

Saturday - Majlis Berbuka Puasa with all my tutorial friends.

Stopped by at the bazaar eearly to buka puasa first. Too hungry! :O

Me before the majlis. Tidy ehhh. Haha

After a few hours. Hair's back to the typical oily mess :O

Week 12

Another Sunday choir practice :) I love watching them sing.

Kopi - MUST.

Supporting Datuk Lee even it's the week of UPS. The cafe's bursting with us students! 

Bits and pieces of the week. Tension!

Everyone had their exams at different places. Mine was at Asrama Pelajar Perempuan, near to my dear-old-room :3

After exam - Messy table!

Highlight of the week - went to Joyce's room when she's asleep and woke her up by singing birthday song! 

Friday - Going to church to overnight. Yes, home's near!

Mounts of luggage and baggage. 

Outing - the only Starbucks I had, in a cute little glass bottle. :3

Very expensive Bak Kut Teh!

螳螂捕蝉黄雀在后 ! x)

Foods!!!

Saturday - At Miri's airport! :) 

Thank God there's Clarence to help. Yay for the Starbucks he chia too! Ohhhhhh lucky me x)

Yes, in 3 hours, I'll be breathing the air of my old hometown :) See you, God bless! :)