复杂 · 矛盾

现在的我，有很多心情mix在一起. 只有矛盾复杂能describe我现在的一切

*以下的是想到什么就说出来，不想一一categorize了*

everything is already a routine to me. I LOVE SIMPLICITY. but yet i wanted changes made to have excitement in life. Just that, i know i will lose something, and it might affected my whole life.

as the things to be gain are all unknown, not knowing whether its worth or not, all will not be as simple as it seems to be.

single or double? with or without?

it might be what my heart wanted, but it is NOT what my mind hope for. more to feelings? or reality thoughts?

growing up is mandatory, growing old is optional.

= but the problem is, courage is needed in the process of growing up =

anyone know where and how to gain courage?

紧急! 我该理智还是感性点?! 不知道啊!

so confused with what i wanted. as the choices made is going to be a sacrifice in certain way no matter what the decision is.

Lack of Confidence, Afraid of Getting Hurt

为何要为自己增加不必要的烦恼? :(

当一切变成了习惯，心中就会自然的害怕改变

恐惧

呐倪~~

本小姐的老毛病 -- 男人恐惧症 又犯了啦 ==

虽然说这次状况有些不一样 但是无论如何 我还是要正常啊！

为什么想像时一切可以很正常

但当全部变成事实时我却害怕得要死 不敢面对 反而逃避畏缩？

在这样下去 我快崩溃 快疯掉了！

难道经过这么长的时间

我还是看不开吗？

还是一样无助的 不知怎么办好？

to my beloved friends :

你们太天真 太傻了

我不是你们所的那和平天使

我不是你们认为的那么好

我承认 我是双面人

所以也别太依赖我

别总以为我很看开

很开朗 很坚强 很成熟

我只是一个很正常 很普通的凡人

虽然有时表达能力很差劲

但对你们的爱 我是真心诚意的

这些都不是单靠我的能力就能行使出来

这些爱，是来自我那慈悲宽宏万能的阿巴天父

×biology要我命 干干干 现在学了mitosis而已就乱团团了×

选择

差不多一样

很难选择

怎么办

×千万不能把任何然当成代替品×

×时间要把握×

最后的选择会影响到以后的一切

所以现在真的很很很烦恼啊~~

无聊

猜猜看这是什么

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猜得到吗？

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哈哈哈 好啦 不玩了

这其实是打跆拳道的人专用的teethguard

只是这有点血迹罢了

本小姐最近认识的那个很厉害打跆拳道的人吼

真的是超级无敌大变态

每次打到人家牙齿流血

讲给我听时还兴奋到那样 ==

哇哩嘞~~~~

原本以为你很静很乖的

哪里知道

你是很吵的臭娘炮

哼~~~

说你后就给我看的那无奈的笨表情

像个傻子~~~~

哇咔咔咔咔 XD

人很高又怎样

黑带高一级又怎样

手被割到留疤又怎样

管你啊~

哈哈哈哈哈哈

**本小姐闷了~ 别管我 XD

numb

doesn't know what's left in between. love nor hate just don't seem to exists anymore. not empty, just there's no feeling at all.

总以为已经找到真正的自己

原来我一点都不了解自己

一心想要的是什么

不知道这迷宫要怎样走出去

迷路好久了

前方一片模糊

快无力去寻找那出口

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母亲节让我想了许多

朋友都问我

母亲节我会怎么过

我什么话都不说

因为我真的不知该怎么回答

好久没和家人真正沟通了

可能可以说是几乎不曾吧

是我的问题吗

还是什么

我不知道

在他们面前开口

似是一件很难的事

何况是心事

就很自然的

只有会被赞扬的事才能说出来

其余的

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曾几何时

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我多么羡慕那些家人和朋友都没有差别的

chapter 6

还在保持silence当中

母亲节
我既在cc

说实在
什么事都没有准备
也不知道要跟妈咪说什么
不知怎样好

管他吗?
不想了

最近真的什么事都不想说
就保持silence 低调
感觉 也蛮不错的

Jason Castro - Let's Just Fall In Love Again

Let's Just Fall In Love Again lyrics

Lets pretend baby
That you've just met me
And Ive never seen you before
Ill tell all my friends
That I think you're staring
And you say the same to yours



And oh, well dance around it all night
And then Ill follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right



And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
Its so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because its so funny
Lets just think about it, honey
Lets just fall in love again



Ill call you in three days
Not too soon, not too late
And Ill ask your roommate if you're home
You call me on Thursday
And well hang out all day
Then fall asleep on the phone



And oh, Ill hold your hand when we drive
And well lose track of all the time
And well tell everyone
That we ain't never felt so alive



And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
Its so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because its so funny
Lets just think about it, honey
Lets just fall in love again



Well fall disgustingly fast
And well stop hanging out with friends
And they'll be so offended



And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
Its so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because its so funny
Lets just think about it, honey
Lets just fall in love again
Lets just fall in love again