感触

昨天在少团看了这段短片 — 末世現象：基督徒大逼迫

如果你因为承认耶稣基督是你的救主的话而会遭到生命上的逼迫，你是否承认？

即使是丧失自己的生命，或丧失身边你所爱的人的性命呢？你还会承认吗？

你是否对生还存着信心，一点都不怀疑祂？

其实心中的我真的很挣扎，发现到自己的信心在动摇，信心的根没扎紧

忽然想起了这段短片 — 火車父子：耶穌及天父的愛

坦白说现在我的感触好多，但只有个总结 — 若不是因为相信上帝，不可能会有现在的我

祂的恩典永远够我用 :)

Chapter 16 - Toy Story 3

yesterday watched le! super nice! extreme syok! Lol haha. after youth i went to Ning house awhile, wait for the time to pass. 7 walked to Spring and go food court to meet Marc n Lex while they buy tickets. Then when i saw both of them and walk to their direction and they pretended they cant see me cause i'm one head shorter NIAH. si beh bad d. anyways chit-chat and kia with them till 9 baru masuk cinema watch TOYS STORY 3 :DDDDDDDDDDDD

*all pictures credit too Google*

# toy story 1 + 2 character.

cant really remember all their names~ :( its really very long since i first watched toy story1. that time we're still using the big tape! cool si xD toy story2 is watched at 1999? woah its when i'm 5 years old and now i'm 16 already. time flies~

#all charaters of toy story 3

#new characters! lots-o'huggin'-bear seems nice but actually he's the baddest among all neh

# at first i thought big baby is scary but the scariest character in toy story3 is the MONKEY == i hate it so much when it appear

#miss Barbie meets Ken~ :DDD

#Andy! he's 17 liao wei! super handsome xD

#it all start when Andy's finish high school and gonna prepare to go college

#picture above were all VIP toys in a room of older kids. picture below is another room with younger kids where all toys nightmare starts? haha

#buzz gets the girl!

am i saying too much? haha. watch it yourself! highly recommended to all especially 3D. but be warn not to let young young kids watch 3D wei. the monkey really make people kintio neh.

the movie ends at 11. talk while they walk me to mum's car. gosh i don't really get what lex n marc were talking bout but i kinda like to listen to them talking. *they gossips like girls! xD* lex pose when watching the movie si beh cute! love die xD and marc still the old one although its been four month since i see him. act coolde. haha.

quote marc - true friends really ain't the same :) i had a super great time! :DD

Toy Story 2 - When Somebody Loved Me

Performed by Sarah McLachlan (nominated for Best Song Oscar, 1999)

when somebody loved me

everything was beautiful

every hour we spent together

lives within my heart

and when she was sad

i was there to dry her tears

and when she was happy so was i

when she loved me

through the summer and the fall

we had each other that was all

just she and i together like it was meant to be

and when she was lonely

i was there to comfort her

and i knew that she loved me

so the years went

by i stayed the same

but she began to drift away

i was left alone

but still i waited for the day

when she'd say i will always love you

lonely and forgotten

i never thought she'd look my way

when she smiled at me

and held me

just like she used to do

like she loved me

when she loved me

when somebody loved me

everything was beautiful

every hour we spent together

lives within my heart

when she loved me

Toy Story - Intro Song - "You've Got a Friend in Me"

You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

When the road looks rough ahead

And you're miles and miles

From your nice warm bed

Just remember what your old pal said

Boy, you've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

You've got troubles, well I've got 'em too

There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you

We stick together and we see it through

You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

Some other folks might be

A little bit smarter than I am

Bigger and stronger too

Maybe

But none of them will ever love you the way I do

It's me and you

And as the years go by

Boys, our friendship will never die

You're gonna see

It's our destiny

You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

chapter 15

yeah babe~ im gonna meet marc n lex at spring later :DD and most of all, watch TOY STORY ! xD

now wait wait wait at ning's house with jereca. aiks sounds like bulb rite? LOL. still got one and a half hour to go~

chapter 14

*all photo credits to Google*

yeah babe. the reading mode is on. :D

cute hor. haha.

this one shuai rite? LOL. hes so fake reading. the PC is on. can he resist that temptation? xD

chapter 13

spot any difference? xD

my dad said my phone is coming back yesterday, but i didn't get to see it~~ :(

ahhhhhhhh. i've forgot to use my blankie these few days. Lol. my results ain't going any good this semester. time for more tuition, less online and texting :)

craps craps craps.

i'm gone. and i'm back again. maybe i'll disappear once more? haha.

Cheeserland

since i watch the alpha project of cheeserland last night on astro, i decided to visit her blog and refresh myself. it's freakingly eye opening! i enjoy reading her post so much, she's cute and young looking, so as her lifestyle for her actual age! i am totally shocked and surprise.

my 读后感 after visiting cheeserland :

*it's sort of a tutorial bah. must give myself homework if i want learn loh. LOL*

this is a picture of sakura flower petals lying on the ground, from cheesie's blog. it's pretty to the max! i must see it with my own eyes in my living years.

ps. this new specs is hurting my ears. so much. == but i don't want to get back to that shop because i just don't want and it's not because i want to keep the specs. aiks. LOL huh :/

Charice Pempengco

I adore this artist, named Charice Pempengco, like so so much that her songs actually makes me push the play button non-stop and never get tired of it. Seriously.

The first time i saw her was in the year 2009 when she appear on The Oprah Winfrey Show on the September 9 "Dreams Come True" episode, in which Oprah referred to her as "The Most Talented Girl in the World." She sang Celine Dion's "My Heart Will Go On" with David Foster on piano, then Oprah went on to surprise her with an appearance by Celine Dion via satellite, who invited her to sing a special duet at New York City's Madison Square Garden as part of Dion's Taking Chances Tour.

This song titled "Note to God" which was written by a legendary person named Diane Warren. "Note to God" is a song written by Diane Warren and first recorded by American R&B singer JoJo in 2006 for her album The High Road. On May 18, 2009, Filipina pop singer Charice performed it on The Oprah Winfrey Show. Charice's recording of the song, produced by David Foster, served as a promotional single for her self-titled album. It was only released as digital download but it charted in U.S. and Canada due to high digital sales.

**NOTE TO GOD

Note To God lyrics

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak what's in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away

For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God

I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end

and for peace to mend this world

I'd say

I'd say

I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

I'd say please help us find a way

End all the bitterness, put some tenderness

in our hearts

I'd say

I'd say

I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

No

No

We can't do it on our own

So

So

(Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue)

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

No

No

(No)We can't do it on our own

(So)

So

If I wrote a note to God

The NOW hit. song named PYRAMID, featuring Iyaz.

Pyramid lyrics

Shawty's love is like a pyramid (ooh)

We stand together till the very end (eh ooh)

There'll never be another love for sure (ooh)

Iyaz and Charice let we go

Stones, heavy like the love you've shown (shown)

Solid as the ground we've known (known)

And I just wanna carry on

We took it from the bottom up (no no no)

And even in a desert storm (yeah)

Sturdy as a rock we hold (oh)

Wishing every moment froze

Now I just wanna let you know

Earthquakes can't shake us

Cyclones can't break us

Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock

It feels just like it's heaven's touch

Together at the top (at the top baby), like a pyramid

And even when the wind is blowing

We'll never fall just keep on going

Forever we will stay, like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh (oooh)

Cold (cold), never ever when you're close (close)

We will never let it fold (fold)

A story that was never told

Something like a mystery (yoh!)

And every step we took we've grown

Look how fast the time has flown

A journey to a place unknown

We're going down in history

Earthquakes can't shake us (oh)

Cyclones can't break us (oh)

Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (hey!)

It feels just like it's heaven's touch

Together at the top, (at the top baby) like a pyramid

And even when the wind is blowing (wind is blowing)

We'll never fall just keep it going (keep it going)

Forever we will stay, like a pyramid (eh oh)

Like a pyramid girl let me show you

That I love you so much

That we gonna get through (oh oh)

Even when there's storms

I will never go, Ima be the one to keep you safe (hey)

Before was our love back it up more than enough

Holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough (oh oh)

Mother nature (hey) or disaster won't stop at happy ever after

Pyramid, keep it going (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Oh oh ooooh (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (solid rock)

It feels just like it's heaven's touch (oooh)

Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid

And even when the wind is blowing

We'll never fall just keep on going (keep it going)

Forever we will stay (Charice), like a pyramid (what what)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock

It feels just like it's heaven's touch

Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid (pyramid)

And even when the wind is blowing

We'll never fall just keep it going

Forever we will stay (ooh), like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh

**Charice Pempengco biography on wiki

**Charice Pempengco official website

**More Charice Pempengco pictures

ps. some phrases are quoted and copied. but it still speaks up me. Believe me. She's amazing and extremely talented. NO JOKE.

chapter 12

越漂亮的景象，越会让人迷失

我宁愿盲点，看不清楚，猜不透

what fascinates the windows of our soul, it'll led us lost our thoughts through reality. i am un-clearly clear now, if you know what i mean. *rolls eyes and smirk for saying such unsuited my taste talking* heh.

this Taylor Swift song titled "today was a fairytale" kept haunting me. as in, a positive way if u're wondering. i am neither obsess or annoyed with it but it sort of plays on and of in my mind for such long periods already. weird huh.

eh. My mind is open and i seriously know what's important now. Electronic stuff ain't so tempting anymore. ahh food too? yet to be. haha. *reminder i am un-clearly clear* its just the start, my decision might be mature enough, i just don't know whether i'll have the ability to accept and unsure that it'll last or i'll be emotional again and whine some more OR.. just in case if something happens.

ps. decision can be made, but only in a firm condition where there's evidence.

pss. PEOPLE CHANGES.

psss. happy "bak zhang" day guys! erm. although i am half hour late. :P

pssss. i love Charice! i am madly in love with her! Lol.

psssss. sorry for being lost these days. being alone seems to be nice. *not the negative and rejecting type, but the i don't care so much anymore type* i kinda enjoy it. :D

ah. i love me and my family! <3>

Pissed

to the max. this internet connection is seriously getting my nerves. adding some more nags around.

eff off. leave me alone. i cant take any comments and suggestion this moments. who cares what you wanna say. i am deaf now. at least its temporary.

just give me space to be alone! i don't get a heck whats going on with me.

rants the craps

sorry for the late update. its not how i thought. many people seems to be so free during holiday and hope that school comes fast. yet i couldn't accept the fact that there's only one week left and its back to school day already. its the end of June and i had a feeling that i hadn't even learn anything in this pass six months! gosh. i am sure to fail both maths and add maths for this semester.

there's time i hope that no one would care about me and treat me like i never exist. its far more better than people having expectations on you and you having responsibilities in doing many stuff. i am freakingly tired. tired of the looks of people eyes on me. i know one cant avoid having people expecting something on you but i just need sometime alone. some time to refresh and get things organize. i need time for preparation, i need time to rest. seriously this holiday didn't help a thing.

iscf, prefects, nie competition, youth, most of all, STUDYING and other little bits. somehow i had a slight feeling that i didn't even enjoy a single part of my life.

i know where's my problem. i just don't know how to overcome it. how to be HUMBLE?

craps :D

i may not have a photographic memory, but somehow i can remember taste and songs. ahh. okay the point is. erm. i love the dish i've cooked! aha. it taste like my mum recipe heh although it dont looks like it. *proud* Lol. xD

i sure wish i have photographic memory and only remember the important things~ ><

Racist

check out the both prices.

seriously. this is not hilarious. people should stop it.

Tags :D

100 Truths.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage = Milk.
2. Last phone call = Daddy.
3. Last text message = Alex!
4. Last song you listened to = 阿密特《掉了》.
5. Last time you cried = Days ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice = Err, something like it? But no.
7. Been cheated on = Nope.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it = Yes.
9. Lost someone special = Guess so.
10. Been depressed = Yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up = LOL. Yes then nope.

FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Orange.
13. White.
14. Pink.
THIS YEAR (2010) HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend = More than one!
16. Fallen out of love = Nah.
17. Laughed until you cried = Yeah. When i am with the school gangs :)18. Met someone who changed you = Probably. 19. Found out who your true friends were = No.20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yes.21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend’s list = The closest sisters. Yeah.
GENERAL:22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Probably more than half.
24. Do you have any pets = No.
25. Do you want to change your name = In the past, yeah. But now, No thanks?
26. What did you do for your last birthday = Live in depression. Lol.
27. What time did you wake up today = 10.40.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night= Online!
30. Last time you saw your Mother = Last night.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Try stop the "live to eat" motto.
32. What are you listening to right now = The chef's talking on TV? Lol.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Nope.
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now = When dad or mum comes home later. :/
35. Most visited webpage = Facebook, Blog, Youtube, Twitter.
36. Where do you want to be right now? = Depends on who i am with. :)
37. Nicknames = Thessa, Mei.
38. Relationship Status = Single but not available. (:
39. Zodiac sign = Taurus. The stuborn one. :D
40. Male or female? = Female!
41. Elementary? = SJK Chung Hua No.3.
42. Middle School = Kuching High School.
44. Hair color = Combination of black red and brown. I dyed. :/
45. Long or short = Half short, half long. The jellyfish style~46. Height = 163?
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Nope.
48. What do you like about yourself? = I dont know.49. Piercings = Yes.
51. Righty or lefty= Righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = None.
53. First piercing = Primary, or is it kindy? Heh.
54. First best friend = Rebecca Yap. SInce 2 years old till now :D
55. First kiss = Accidentaly. D:
58. First crush = The D guy! Lol.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = Yeah. :(
60. Drinking = Uh-huh.
61. I’m about to = Bath.
62. Listening to = Two artists talking.
63. Waiting for = This Friday! Outings with sister and school gang~!
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids? = One or two? Aaah or no? i dont know/65. Get Married? = How should i know.66. Career? = Something that uses heart to sense.

WHICH IS BETTER?:
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller = Taller.
70. Older or Younger = Old enough to finish school, young enough to started all over. :)
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Both.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Both.
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = I don't know~

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = Nope.
77. Drank hard liquor = Yeah of course. xD
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Nope.
79. Sex on first date = What the heck?
80. Broken someone’s heart = Yes, I guess.
81. Had your own heart broken = Yes, literally.
82. Been arrested = Nope.
83. Turned someone down = Yeah.
84. Cried when someone died = Yeah.
85. Fallen for a friend = Duh. Yes :)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Yes and No. I am always doubting.
87. Miracles = Yes i think.
88. Love at first sight = Yeah.
89. Heaven = Of course!
90. Santa Claus = Nope, not anymore.
91. Kiss on the first date = Whichever?
92. Angels = Yeah.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? = Nope!
94. Where were you born? = Miri, Sarawak, East Malaysia.
95. Did you sing today? = Every single day!
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = I think so.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = The beginning of Form4, precious my time and study hard.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = The last day when i saw Him. :D
99. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody? = Depends.
100. Posting this as 100 truths = Thats the whole point right? :D

changes

beverly's blog was my last stop just now. it was really nice.

hmm~ there's so many major changes happening around me. literally. not me, but others. it somehow changes my mood too. kinda effected and now i am craving for changes. influence and tempting huh. time flies. many people changed from single to paired, paired to married, secondary to university, university to society, effort to success, young to old. :)

but there's some reason i am afraid of changes. just hoping to explore new places, enjoy temporary or maybe permanent new lifestyles. besides seeing people travelling, i want to try my own. besides seeing people getting new stuffs new styles, i crave to change my looks too.

i am hungry. :( but when i saw my pictures with big tights i kinda freak out. heh not stopping me from eating though. hmm. the Gronstrand's arriving Malaysia tomorrow! cant wait to see them. :D